A Challenge for Myself

Thursday, February 10, 2011
Lately I have been feeling discouraged & unmotivated! This is only when I come to work, I don't know if this is something that happens to all moms, or all first time moms, but even though aaron is 9 months, my mind & my heart are not here in the office with me. The only place I want to be is home with my baby. So, I keep searching for things that make me unhappy at the office, and things get negative fast. It is depressing! I am so lucky that my mom is able to watch aaron for me but at the same time, I consumed with jealousy that I am not with my son!

I never imagined myself as a stay at home mom, and it's not even something that is possible for our family at the moment, but I just want to be that mom that is home when my kids get home from school, that has time to sit and do homework & arts and crafts with them. At this point, it would be nice to not get home at 6-7 and not be too tired to cook a meal for my family!

I am surprised that I even feel this way! I never even knew if I wanted kids, aaron was a surprise, a wonderful surprise! but I never saw myself as the women I am becoming today. Motherhood has completely changed me! :)

Anyway, I have given this feeling to God in prayer! and I am challenging myself to only speak positive things that will motivate me! after all, I am working to be able to provide for my family so we can accomplish our goals!

I came across this verse this morning and it was perfect and exactly what I needed!


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I am going to have a good day today! and I hope you do too!!! :)


2 comments:

Des said...

I can totally understand how hard it is to be at work when your baby is at home. But we have to keep moving forward. If I start to get frustrated with my job, I surround myself with things from home and pictures from my girls and remind myself that what I'm doing benefits them. It makes me try just a little harder.

And then there was Anna... said...

Des I read your comment this morning and printed about 6 pictures and put them around my desk!!! thank you! DOn't know why i didn't do that sooner! Thanks :)

 
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