Lately I have been feeling discouraged & unmotivated! This is only when I come to work, I don't know if this is something that happens to all moms, or all first time moms, but even though aaron is 9 months, my mind & my heart are not here in the office with me. The only place I want to be is home with my baby. So, I keep searching for things that make me unhappy at the office, and things get negative fast. It is depressing! I am so lucky that my mom is able to watch aaron for me but at the same time, I consumed with jealousy that I am not with my son!
I never imagined myself as a stay at home mom, and it's not even something that is possible for our family at the moment, but I just want to be that mom that is home when my kids get home from school, that has time to sit and do homework & arts and crafts with them. At this point, it would be nice to not get home at 6-7 and not be too tired to cook a meal for my family!
I am surprised that I even feel this way! I never even knew if I wanted kids, aaron was a surprise, a wonderful surprise! but I never saw myself as the women I am becoming today. Motherhood has completely changed me! :)
Anyway, I have given this feeling to God in
prayer! and I am challenging myself to only speak
positive things that will
motivate me! after all, I am working to be able to provide for my
family so we can accomplish our
goals!
I came across this verse this morning and it was perfect and exactly what I needed!
Image Source.
I am going to have a good day today! and I hope you do too!!! :)
